talking about the world of human beings, the difference, the harmony and being realistic, also secularity.

a very great talk with HH Tenzin Gyatso the 14th Dalai Lama. i REALLY suggests you all see the full interview here. very enlighting! here some of his saying,

"my basic belief is we're all the same human being. of all six billion human beings, we're all the same. and we too much emphasize in problems of secondary differences. forgetting the basic level, that's the problem. yes, we had different religion, different nationality, different system, or economy systems, these are secondary. if then we have some sort of conflicts in this level, we must to remember that we're the same human being, then these problems can solved chivalry and peacefully."

"The very nature of using force is just to control others body not mind. Mind could change only through understanding, dialouge, compassion, and brotherhood-sisterhood. Then you could change our mind, that's the only way. So using force, destroy that. Force bring fear, fear bring anger, anger brings hatred, then violence."

Thanks to Metro TV's Face to Face with Desi anwar, such a good Program, meeting amazing people at such amazing places. Rock On!

the mix.

Love : 1% concept + 99% execution.

:)

i just runover a cockroach.

aahh, baru saja aku membunuh seekor kecoa di rumahku, melindasnya dengan motor. Damn, it made me think.

menjadikanku seperti hipokrit, berbicara tentang kepedulian terhadap sesama, baik manusia ataupun mahluk hidup lainnya.. sebagai contoh, aku peduli (yeah right, not so much i guess, never done anything about it :( ) tentang kelestarian hewan-hewan seperti komodo, paus, atau hewan-hewan lainnya yang secara global dianggap salah menyakiti apalagi membunuh mereka.

Bagaimana dengan pembunuhan yang baru saja kulakukan, seekor kecoa pun termasuk mahkluk hidup bukan? dan aku menghabisinya dengan tidak berpikir panjang: hanya karena jijik atau iseng. Dan sebagian besar penduduk dunia pasti akan memaafkanku dan menganggap itu hal yang biasa, tetapi bagaimana dengan para penggemar serangga? kecoa lebih tepatnya, hahaha jika ada, habislah aku.

event tough i dont really know what's the good use of them? but it doesnt make me have the rights to eliminate them, does it? they're also a living creature, just like us. aaahh, in the end it's still a subjective matter of me, aint it? i still need to learn a lot about fairness in life.

and it's believed that cockroach has been living for a long time alongside with the human. so if only we could learn it's formula of staying alive, we could survive for another centuries hahaha. (even Pixar had a thought about it, and put a cockroach that has survived all humanity alongside Wall-E)

this is random thought out of something happen today. i know i'm wrong and i'm sorry for that. sincerly.

Wheels.

I know what you're thinkin'
We were goin' down
I can feel the sinkin'
But then I came around

And everyone I've loved before
Flashed before my eyes
And nothin' mattered anymore
I looked into the sky

Well I wanted something better man
I wished for something new
And I wanted something beautiful
And wish for something true
Been lookin' for a reason man
Something to lose

When the wheels come down
When the wheels touch ground
And you feel like it's all over
There's another round for you
When the wheels come down

Know your head is spinnin'
Broken hearts will mend
This is our beginning
Comin to an end

Well, you wanted something better man
You wished for something new
Well, you wanted something beautiful
Wished for something true
Been lookin for a reason man
Something to lose

When the wheels come down
When the wheels touch ground
And you feel like it's all over
There's another round for you
When the wheels come down

When the wheels come down
When the wheels touch ground
And you feel like it's all over
There's another round for you
When the wheels come down

When the wheels come down
When the wheels touch ground
And you feel like it's all over
There's another round for you
When the wheels come down

Foo Fighters - Wheels



everytime i hear it, it's tellin me to grow up even more. :)

Five Stages Of Grief

The progression of states is:

1. DENIAL
   "I feel fine."; "This can't be happening, not to me."
   Denial is usually only a temporary defense for the individual. This feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behind after death.
2. ANGER
   "Why me? It's not fair!"; "How can this happen to me?"; "Who is to blame?"
   Once in the second stage, the individual recognizes that denial cannot continue. Because of anger, the person is very difficult to care for due to misplaced feelings of rage and envy. Any individual that symbolizes life or energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.
3. BARGAINING
   "Just let me live to see my children graduate."; "I'll do anything for a few more years."; "I will give my life savings if..."
   The third stage involves the hope that the individual can somehow postpone or delay death. Usually, the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle. Psychologically, the individual is saying, "I understand I will die, but if I could just have more time..."
4. DEPRESSION
   "I'm so sad, why bother with anything?"; "I'm going to die... What's the point?"; "I miss my loved one, why go on?"
   During the fourth stage, the dying person begins to understand the certainty of death. Because of this, the individual may become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the time crying and grieving. This process allows the dying person to disconnect oneself from things of love and affection. It is not recommended to attempt to cheer up an individual who is in this stage. It is an important time for grieving that must be processed.
5. ACCEPTANCE
   "It's going to be okay."; "I can't fight it, I may as well prepare for it."
   In this last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with their mortality or that of their loved one.

in case you forget or dont know. basically for facing death or illness, but i guess it works to any conditions.
:)

losing interests.

do you realize there are times in life, that we lose interests in something that we usually love or like doing it? we dont mean to be like that, but one thing and another, it just the way it is.

for example, it's already another WorldCup. i could remember how i was really into watching it a few years before. i could pick a country i love (France, for once) and support it all the way it goes, watch every game it had, even the boring ones. but now? i know nothing bout it except it is on Africa. hahaha. i was amazed with how wonderful to be a World Cup player, playing for your country, in the world most famous stage, it's so amazing, isnt it?. but now i think i've lost my interest in it. well, not all, some part of it. Just not feelin' the hype i guess.

another examples is the NBA Finals. I played basketball through my senior high school years, and still lovin' it till my first year at university i guess. to me, it's not always about the winning, but more to the beauty of the game. Jordan is my favourite, still remember his Golden Era with the famous triangle offense with the bulls. but after he left the game, i lost my appetite in it, my bad i know, but it just the way it is. and it's already NBA Finals now, Boston versus Lakers. Kobe's still playing for Los Angeles using number 24 but who's playing for Boston? hell, i dont know, i was surprised to know KG's there.. but still, when i watch the game, and the beauty of it, i do still has the love for it, just not as big as before. another kind of interests-losing, perhaps.

well, it's just two examples reckoning of what's happening to me in the current time. But it makes realize, we do really lose interest for a few things in life. I lost my interest for Christmas Holiday, no.. almost all national holiday probably.. remember when we were little, we're eager and got very enthusiast about it? how 'bout now? not really into it heh? we dont really feel those holiday spirit, do we? what's with that? is it because all the new routinity so-called work? is it a sign of growing up? (i prefer not) or are those things are just not really instresting anymore?

a reason i could find to that matter is that we're also losing somebody or anyone to have or to do the same interests as we are. when we got someone or anybody to do or enjoy the same interest, i assume we're not losing it as soon as we're alone. so, a companion is a must then? but every person has their own life, arent they?

well again, some of us find new things that interest our life.. and that's a good one, lose some and get some.

but i think we're the one who choose to lose interests in all of them. we got bored and pretty unconcern of all those thing we used to loved. we always find a reason to leave them behind. from small reasons to the big ones, and before you know it, BANG! we're kinda missing all those thing. well, dont know bout you, but i do.

• i lost my interest in sports. not doing them, well at least still enjoying the beauty of it. :P
• i lost my interest in holiday spirit: christmas, lebaran, new year, and else.. i should find the joy of it again.
• i never lost interest in designing, art directing, or anything that relates to my job.
• i lost my interest of travelling, but i guess the sea keep calling me back.
• i never lost interest in knowing something new.
• i never lost interest in life. yet. :P
• i never lost interest in noodles. :P
• ...

but some says: No one could loses anything because no one really owns anything. :)


hahaha, mencoba mengingat dan merindukan hal-hal yang biasa kunikmati. belajar menerapkan semangat untuk menikmati hal sekecil apapun.

menikmati pekerjaan.

find a job that you love, and you will never have to work again. :)