it's the last day of 2016. so let's look back on 2016's best (at least for me)

best moment: my little sister's wedding.
It was nice and simple with happiness all around. our little family gaining new members. And to see her in her wedding dress, having the ceremony, is really a magical moment. I am proud of her, though I didn't do much, she always find her way. and for that, I really wish her all the best in her new journey!

best thing: pokemon go
what can I say? This thing really hooked me off. I'm not a pokemon fan, but this game gives something in my dull life. It makes me want to visit more places. Again, this makes my life less boring.

Well that's the top things I can remember for now. It's less than 10 mins to 2017 now, well thank you 2016! Welcome 2017.

mungkin nanti.

adakah politik di surga?

satu... benda, abstrak.
dua... lokasi, tujuan.
tiga... tanya, eksistensial.

tiga atribut, satu jawaban.
mungkin nanti, bukan saat ini.

the closure.

whoa!
that's it.
that's the closure.

so many questions i wanted to ask,
but they don't really matter anymore.
for they don't bother me anymore.

she is happy,
and i will too.

on the seventeenth floor,

in a time least expected.
i had it, the closure.

there never was.

the first one is a mistake,
the second one is an option,
what about the third and the next ones?
when the heart feels what it wants to feel
call it stupidity or delusion or whatever
there's always be a lesson learned.

cheers to all the dinner and the talk we had!
cheers to all the promises we'll break!
cheers to all the moment we'll never have!

there's no ending. no closure.
there's no us. there never was.

people change,
memories remain.

Hey stranger, how've you been?

it's not like i didn't see her every now and then,
but probably we're just avoiding each other.
or maybe just me.

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and after a while that feels like forever,

'How are you?"
that's what she said to me when we met again.
arghhh that smile, deteriorate me all over again

"am good., and you?... are you gaining weight?"
foolish answer came from mindless soul,
please take it as a compliment, as cuddling is all i want to do with her.

but then she pouted and we went our own way.

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another day, the morning was so jolly.
we met again, waiting for the elevator.

i said hello, but she didn't reply.
not even a glance,

she did not reply.

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and so here we are.

strangers.
again.

First snow

It was past midnight in central Amsterdam.
got a text to enjoy the snow,
but when i checked the window, there was none.

and not long before that,
there's sound comes from the window,
and there it is, an icing on the window
and i asked, "is that snow?"
"yes it is!" she answered.

grab my sweater and go downstairs,
go outside and it's there.

my first falling snow.
only last for a couple of minutes,
short but sweet.
really sweet.

and actually we didn't realize
that there's this skating area near the hotel.
and yes, i was still in my short. no socks even.
cold? yes. happy? definitely!